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Nsking my heart goes out to you! . Just know that we have all been there and as crap as you feel now ( and you'll feel even worse if comes) you do find the strength to feel happy and hopeful again for the next cycle. For me work helps!!

Take care, it will happen we just can't control WHEN xx

Why is it that when you are TTC and AF comes she is horrible! Slap in the face much!

I was so down on Sunday that I didnt do one thing, I sat in bed all day and watched Harry Potter. I feel better know but so sad.

Oh, and if anyone wants to join me in my new forum thread....feel free...it's lonely in there!

http://www.countdowntopregnancy.com/forum/post.php?postid=12754

AF showed this morning (well, started spotting last night, started for real this AM).

Good thing I had my breakdown yesterday afternoon....I didn't have many tears left this morning after another night of not enough sleep.

I'm so over this whole process.

There's always next month nsking! I know it's tough. Igot a today at 7dpo I know it's probably too early but I'm feeling so down.

I have a small trick to get over the pain of BFNs... I plan a "reward" if I end up not being pregnant for the month. Obviously nothing beats the 2 lines, but if this is not my month, I'll take a mini vacation with my husband or get a nice haircut. It's not exactly a win-win situation but it makes me feel a bit better.

CROSSING FINGERS!

nsking...i'm totally with you ..i got the yesterday too. and i am feeling depressed too. just feels like you try all this stuff for nothing, like its pointless. and its like you are stuck in a hamster wheel..doing all this stuff, running around, bd'ing, taking temps, spending money on tests and opks...and we're still in the same spot getting nowhere. and we really have no choice but to pick ourselves up and do it all over again next month .

this will be beginning of my 9th cycle. I'm hoping what my doctor said is right..that most women get pregnant between 6 to 9 months of trying.. because i'm at the end of that. As of friday my job ends and I have no health insurance so I can't even go to get any type of treatments or tests done unless I pay out of pocket which i can't afford. so i'm going to be stuck in the hamster wheel for a while if i don't get pregnant.

I'm going through this feeling now...i don't know if its just me and its just in my head and it feels wrong to say this or share this or even feel like this.. I"m not trying to disparage or put down anything that anyone that has been through a miscarriage or loss has gone through. I can't imagine anything worse and it's a huge fear of mine. and I'm sure that you hate when people say "at least you know you can get pregnant" as consolation...but from someone whose been trying for the better part of a year now..its kinda of true. at least you know you can get pregnant. At this point I'm wondering if I can even get pregnant because I've heard so many stories of women who got pregnant and suffered a loss and are trying again..but I haven't even had an inkling of a pregnancy...i've taken countless tests and haven't even so much as gotten a false positive or almost line or anything and its highly discouraging. it makes me want to give up but I want a child and my husband wants a child. I just don't know what to do.

I know I am kinda late to join this forum but can I?

I am a WBMM :)

Congrats to all you that got a BFP and baby dust and prayers to those who got the BFN.

This is month 6th of trying for me. I am ttc my first. I am somewhere between 7 and 9dpo I believe. I didn't test for it so I am just going by my calender and when I had O pains.

I have had some symptoms (some that I have never ever experienced before ..so I know I am not just making myself think I am feeling a certain way)
First symptom was burping and gas.
Other symptoms Ive had are headaches (might have just been the heat), sore nipples, breast and underarms (horrible yesterday..I told my hubby to not touch at all lol..poor guy ) a little wave of nausea here and there yesterday and this morning, weird cramping and pain in ovary area, sore hips, legs and back...oh and I am SO tired. Can barely stay awake.
Most of this started yesterday and the day before.

I wanna test SO SO SO bad but I am going to try my hardest to wait until Sunday.

nsking and angeluv- so sad to hear your AF came . sending to both of you!! Hang in there! You aren't alone!

SO SORRY to hear about the bfn's girls...I'll keep you in my prayers!!

I am 3 days late now and still 2 more neg tests..... Symptoms still there but maybe it's AF. I have had cramping for 2 weeks now (mild but cramping) extremely exhausted, irritable, boobs are SORE, and gas in spurts "ewww" I think I might cry right now!! What is the deal???

Thanks for the hugs and support, girls. I know I'm not alone, and that helps.

angeluv - don't ever apologize for how you feel or wonder if you "should" feel a certain way or not! It does sound awful, what you said, but it's not like you're being mean about it. And for what it's worth, I feel the EXACT same way. EXACT. It's like I have a friend who has a 2.5 year old and is 24 weeks along with baby #2; it took them about 6 months to get pregnant with #2, and she knew we were TTC at the same time. At one point she texted me and said, "I know exactly what you're going through, hang in there!" NO YOU DON'T! You KNOW you can have a baby! Mommas with m/c's out there, please don't take this the wrong way! I can't imagine the loss and it's one of the worst fears (you go from being afraid you can never be pregnant to being afraid you can't ever have a healthy baby). But man, just to KNOW my body at least has a flippin' CLUE!? would be great.

To top it all off, I called my ob/gyn to get the 3rd round of Clomid called in, and I asked her when the HSG (to see if my tubes are open) would be done, and she said once my DH knows for sure he's good. Well that's great and grand but he's being such a PITA about this whole thing.........he goes to a urologist on Wednesday but he just informed me he wants to "take a break for a month" b/c he's tired of the stress and pressure.......umm........hello, you've had to have ONE test done. I'm so annoyed at him....and I know I shouldn't be, I know he's probably feeling just as negative about himself as I am about myself, but when I told him I started last night, he just said, "ok." And this mroning, he asked if I was okay, and I said, "no," - and he didn't say or do anything. Nothing!!! I know he wants a baby and doesn't know what to say or do to make me feel better, but it's not rocket science - a long hug or a sweet email or text would be helpful....as if I didn't feel bad enough about this whole thing, I get his crap too. Not to mention he has already told me he's "not doing another SA again b/c it was the most humiliating experience ever," - oh, I can hear the fight now.