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Still checking in. How is every one?

Still here...just not "here". LOL

I've been having some tummy issues (serious abdominal pain, shooting pain down my back and nausea after eating) so I went last Monday for an u/s on my stomach, gallbladder, kidneys, etc. My gallbladder is contracted, so I'm going for a dye scan on it (where they inject some kind of radioactive dye and watch it go through the gallbladder). My doctor asked me to make a choice, TTC or figuring out what's going on with my gallbladder. I couldn't do both. He strongly advised the latter....but left it up to my DH and I.

Long story short....I chose to have my tummy issues looked at first, since gallbladder issues run in my family pretty heavily. Pregnancy can make it worse...and there would be nothing I could do about it being pregnant. I started my first NuvaRing last night and have a 3 month script. I may only need 2 months to figure this out...but in any event....we WILL be TTC again around June/July. Come hell or high water! We both will be 35 next year....!!!

I'm unsure if the loss and all the stress after it just reaked havoc on my body. It was probably the absolute LOWEST point in my life....and I don't doubt that caused some flare-ups or whatever in my body. I'm still trying to claw my way out of my pity-party....and getting better each week.

Not spending hours on this site has helped tremendously. I check in when I get email updates from the forums, and that's it. Keeps me sane. I'm doing okay, really.

I hope both your pregnancies are going smoothly. I do check your belly pics Britt....super cute! Jazzy....where are yours?? I'm sure you are popping out by now!

taking a big break from sites the last month, just needed to step away from devoting all my time & thoughts to thinking about babies & the fact that I'm not pregnant yet & that even if I was I'd be scared..... I must say the fear is leaving & I'm starting to feel courage that whatever happens I'll be ok, I'm stronger than I thought was possible & a rainbow is coming eventually :)

hope your all doing well!!!!

According - I am happy to hear that your are starting be less fearful. I finally got to that point about 6 months after my D&C. That is such a hard place to get to. Did you get to Disney land yet?

Melissa- I hope that they can figure out your gall bladder issues! I'm going to be sending some prayers your way! I'm glad you will get that taken care of because it sounds like that could be painful to deal with while you're pregnant. Keep us posted! Been thinking about you a lot lately!

I don't know if I told you ladies or not but I'm happy to say I've had two great ultrasounds so far. At 6w4d I measured 6w1d with a heartbeat of 111. I went back last Wednesday at 7w4d and baby grew 2 weeks worth! 8w1d with a heartbeat of 169. I feel like a lot of my fears left me at that point. During that week I lost a lot of my nausea and I was worried. But to find out that baby grew 2 weeks worth reminded me that not all women get bad nausea and I have to trust that my body knows what to do!

I think about you ladies a lot and I hope everyone's doing well!

Melissa,
I am glad you are going to take care of yourself first. I am sure you will get your health back and maybe you will feel more ready by then to take on the TTC emotional rollercoaster!

Meissa/ According,
Taking a break is probably a good thing. I remember spending hours on here when I was TTC and while it was good to have the support, I think sometimes it was too much time spent. It was making me obsess even more!

Lisa,
Congrats on the ultrasounds! I am sure it will be smooth sailing from here on in!

AFM,
I am almost 16 weeks now. It is 3 and a half weeks until my gender scan. I have not put up my bump picture Melissa, because I feel like an absolute cow. I have gained like 15 pounds and I look like a tank. Everyone keeps telling me otherwise, but I am sure they are just being polite lol.
I have to pee every hour or so and every time I sneeze, I pee a little... Pooping is a rare luxury... The gas is enough to clear the dogs from the room... Sorry about the TMI. Lovely, hey? I know hearing these things doesn't help ease the pain of not being pregnant, but hopefully you can enjoy a little chuckle at my expense!

Jazzy- Yep, definitely sounds like a good pregnancy! Heehee! I'm sure you look beautiful! I'd have to look back and my pregnancy journal with my son to see how much I gained, but I think overall by the time it was all over I clocked in 28 pounds. Just depends on your body and the pregnancy itself. I'm having a feeling of a boy for you....but, I'm always wrong....so I'll say girl!

Lisa- Great news on your u/s!! I did not have nausea with my son, and he turned out great! You're right, not every woman has the nausea all the time....or even at all. Your body may have a good tolerance for carrying a baby, so no worries! I can't believe the babes grew by 2 weeks....woohoo!!

According- It is healthy, I have now personally found, to take a step away from the computer! I have been healthier mentally doing that. I think reminding ourselves of what we are trying to get and don't have puts us in a bad place. I'm glad we both took the steps to get back to good and now have happier outlooks!

AFM- Yes, gallbladder issues first! My mother had hers out, my grandmother had hers out....each aggravated by pregnancy! My mother thought it was just me making her sick when she was pregnant....but after I was born, the illness continued and they found 250 gallstones! Yikes!

I also have my rheumotologist appt. in May....to check out my joint pain. God I am falling apart!! LOL....this is what being mid-30s is all about I guess!! All downhill from here! My DH and I now have some regret that we didn't try harder sooner for another child....but, after we had our DS, I was finishing grad school....started my first teaching job...and my DH was still trying to find his perfect job. We moved in to our first house....finances were tight. So, timing was just not there. Now, here we are all set and ready to go....and we have issues!

Happy St. Patty's Day!

How is everyone? Melissa how did the gallbladder check up turn out?
Its been quiet over on the other site and I miss the girls here. My last journal entry over on the countdown my pregnancy site was different and I still feel the same as I did when I wrote it. I still feel like I am ttc cuz I have "resentful" feelings towards pregnant women. I balk at every announcement on facebook, its so weird. Maybe its emotions? I do feel a fierce loyalty and emotional tie with all the women on this site and I feel like I want to still be here for them and cry with them. Maybe its Past emotions that I never got rid of because of losses? I dunno. But anyways, I am 12 weeks now and still keeping it a secret (with sweaters and baggy clothes). Maybe I will start to feel better towards everyone else when they all know and I can start shedding some layers. I hope you all or doing well. Keep updating with all your progress!

Hi Britt-

I'm so sorry you are having these emotions. From what I read, seems like you've still got one foot on this site and the other on CMP? Does your family know yet? Are you waiting to share the news? Do you share your feelings with hubby or any close friends? I think maybe talking this out (aside from here too!) will help a bit. I'm sure the past losses still weigh heavy on your mind and it's not something we tend to get over easily....I know how that goes. I just hope things get better for you emotionally.

I have my gallbladder scan on April 5th,...the week we are on Easter break. I didn't want to take off from work to do it....so scheduled it when I am off. I've heard it's pretty easy and you feel fine afterwards, but....I'm always ready for the opposite!

Hubby and I are very ready to see what June, July, August, September and October bring us! Hoping I can start in June...pending my results from the gallbladder and rheumotologist appt....but even so, we have quite a few months to TTC. I'm a scheduler.....can you tell? People just say "let it happen when it happens" but, honestly, with my teaching schedule and the school year, there are due dates I MUST avoid (like August and September due dates!). So....this is what we have to work with....June until October. Hoping something will happen in that time.

I just started taking my Maca Root capsules last week with my regular routine of a multivitamin, fish oil, cranberry tablet and vitamin D. My husband is taking Tribulus to help with sperm production and overall male fertility health. I'm really hoping we will be 110% ready when our TTC time rolls around. Our time is running out.....we always agreed that if nothing happened by the time we were 35 that we would consider moving on from the idea of a second child. We made this agreement when we were 27/28....so it's been awhile!

Hoping everyone is doing great in their pregnancies and TTC journies.

Melissa how did your gall bladder scan go? You said you had it around easter? I hope you are doing good. I hope you all are doing well.

I have been feeling better about being pregnant now and now just nervously waiting for next thursday 15 week appointment, if every thing checks out okay then my husband and I will be telling every one. Morning sickness is pretty much gone I think...now to get rid of the stomach bug I have been trying to evade but got anyways lol.

Jazzy but up a picture I noticed :) SUPER cute!!

Hey!!

Thanks for thinking of me Britt! I'm actually radio-active as we speak! LOL. I had my scan done at 10 this morning. Was a bit uncomfortable pressure-wise and made me a bit nauseous....and even now I'm a bit "blah" and have some abdominal discomfort. Won't have my results for 48 hours....so hopefully by Monday or Tuesday my general doctor will give me a call. I'm glad it's over though....now I'm drinking my chamomile tea and relaxing.

Can't believe you're 15 weeks pregnant...oh my goodness. Time really is flying. Are you ladies going to find out what you're having?? I know it's around that time for you, Jazzy and Lisa soon.

AFM...I have one more NuvaRing left and will use it. I switched to all organic/homeopathic supplements and feel absolutely amazing mentally. Besides the tummy issues, I am really feeling good physically too. I can't believe it made that much of a difference for me too....I heard it might, but figured I wouldn't really be able to tell. I am pleasantly surprised.

Hope everyone is doing great! Happy Spring!

OH....and I think Lisa....you are in to Vera, right? Did you see the new baby line?? I am loving the Lillibell print....very girly!